The featured image is a quote from my book, Handwriting: God’s Heart, My Hand, and I wrote it before I had fully experienced freedom from grief.
Over the past few weeks I have noticed many people posting things about grief such as: you will always be grieving… it just looks different, or you never get over grief, and I could keep going… and my heart ached for these individuals. Not because they had lost someone they loved, but because they believe the lie that the enemy is telling them. The lie that we have believed for too long.
You see… I know what it means to grieve. On August 19th, 2013 my dad died and it was the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I cannot begin to express the pain my heart felt. And in that time I thought to myself, “Well, I guess I will always feel like this.” Because I had heard people for so long say they are still grieving their parents (and it had been over 20 years).
I honestly didn’t want to sleep, because it hurt to wake up because reality slapped me in the face. But I didn’t want to stay awake because then I lived reality. I was lost. I was angry. I was upset. I was confused. And I lived that way too long.
Three years after my dad died I was told I needed to write a book. That Papa wanted me to write so I could share my story with others and that I would experience healing through the process. And not only would I experience healing, but others would as well.
So 6 months later I started writing my book. And at some point throughout the process I wrote, “We aren’t meant to live our lives bound to the “grief cycle”. We were meant to grieve– and overcome it because we are conquerors! He gives us joy so that we don’t have to be depressed or mournful–it’s ok to be joyful! It doesn’t mean you don’t miss someone– it means that you trust God more than your circumstances!”
I didn’t realize that it was a completely true statement. I knew God had said that to me. But at the time of writing that I was still living in grief. However, I am here to tell you that I am no longer living in grief. This was the first year that I didn’t dread the month of August. Or that I didn’t dread August 19th. I was excited. Because I knew Papa had healed me and I wanted to celebrate my dad for the life he lived.
I’m here to tell you to stop listening to the lies of the enemy. The devil wants you to live in grief forever. But God wants to free you from your grief. I would love to talk more about this to you. I would love for you to read my book. Share this post with your friends. But more than anything, if you are grieving… give it to Papa. Experience the freedom!