However, as I typed that I thought to myself, “By saying that, am I really patient?” This past week I was in Florida for a few reasons. I was able to help one of my dearest friends by taking her youngest son to be with his grandparents, I had class for 3 days, and then I hung out at Disney for a couple of days. On the trip back I was making excellent time, until I was just about to get to Macon, GA… and then this is what the radar looked like…
I don’t know about you, but anytime I see a storm that looks like that, I try to avoid it… but it was unavoidable. I knew that my great timing was shot because the storm would slow traffic down… and hopefully would not cause any accidents.
Throughout the time that I was in the middle of the storm I thought about why it’s so important for us to have patience. You see, so often I get caught up in the midst of life that when there comes a time that I have to wait for something… I get impatient. After 34 years of waiting… you’d think I would have a better grasp on the waiting patiently.
In one of the lectures, my professor, Dr. A.J. Swoboda, said, “We have no patience for the slow work of God.” And that hit home with me. I’m in a season of Change. The scary part for me is that I don’t really know what the future holds. A year ago I thought I knew, but I don’t want to think too much because of the disappointment that may come. This past year has been a huge transition year. I started school again, I’ve said goodbye to friends, I’ve seen what the enemy can do to a group that I would have never thought would be destroyed, I resigned from my job, I resigned as a deacon at my church, and pulled my membership from my church that I was at for 27 years.
I know that I need to dream with Papa, and I need to open my heart back up to the possibilities of things that might happen in the future. It’s just really hard right now. And that’s okay. I’m not giving up, I’m continuing to pursue my second Master’s degree, and I’m open to see what the future holds. I know that there are dreams in my heart that I hope to see come to fruition, but above that… I want to learn more about who I am in Christ, because that’s what really matters.
What are you struggling with? Do you need help with patience? What do you do when you can tell you’re at your wits end? I’d love to hear your thoughts.